I think all or most of us BI folks have crazy things going on in our lives outside of BI.

There is this girl who I have been seriously in love with since the day I meet her many years ago.

Due to many different circumstance we just never hooked up, the way i wanted to. She was feelin me back then but not as much as I was feelin her. She was younger than men by 2 yrs and I could never get her to get as serious as I would want to with us walking down the isle.

I mean seriously I could be married to her right now but thats the point of why we are not together right now. what was we gonna do, get married!!!!??????

I never ever wanted to be married before my late 20's becuase i know marriages before then almost never last and you have so much more living to do between 17 and 27.

I was in lover with her but I had to choose between her and following my dreams. I choose my dreams.

This girl has been huanting me ever sinse and i have never been in love with anyone since her. She knew i liked her but she didnt know i love her.

tonight i just had enough and thought to myself. "even though there is no chance of us getting together like my heart would like us to be together, if i tell her just how much i love her my heart can finallly let her go."

to be real with yall after i clicked the send button on this email i feel as though i have let go and my heart can move on.

here is the email:

Ok so I know you are gonna think I am crazy after this but this is drivin me crazy and I heard this song recently talking about how things just don’t matter any more.

Right now I am at a place where I don’t care. I think it’s a good place to be because in the past I couldn’t move forward with anything because I was sooo afraid about what people would think. I was so afraid to make any risky moves because I didn’t want people not to like me. I was afraid to make moves like this cause I don’t wanna mess up my future plans. i was afraid that i would loose focus on things that were important to me. This fear crippled me, it made me shy unexpectatly even with my friends. It made me sometimes physically freeze in social settings. Whatever that thing was it got so bad I was afraid of any and everything.

But right now I have decided that that crap just don’t matter any more and I don’t care how you take this. And I don’t care if you neva felt this deep about me. I have to relax, let things go and stop being so fearful.

I hope after I tell you this you will stop haunting me and I can get some sleep at night.

YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY, ALWAYS DID. I CANT STOP THINKING BOUT YOU, I NEVA STOPPED THINKIN ABOUT YOU. I KNOW I STOPPED CALLIN YOU BUT I WAS GOING THROUGH SOME SERIIOUS SH!T AT THAT POINT.

ONE OF THE WORST THINGS I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE WAS HEARING ON THE NEWS THAT YOU HAD AN ACCIDENT AND KNOWING YOU WAS IN THE HOSPITAL RIGHT UP THE STREET FROM MY HOUSE AND NEVER GOING TO VISIT YOU. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MY SELF FOR IT.

THAT WAS SO SELFISH BUT I JUST COULDN’T SEE YOU AND IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER I DIDN’T ONLY DO THAT TO YOU, I DID THAT TO EVERYBODY. AT THAT TIME I FELT LIKE I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW WHO I WAS, I JUST NEEDED TO BE ALONE TO THINK A LOT OF STUFF OUT AND FIGGA OUT WHO I WAS AND WHAT I WANTED OUT OF LIFE. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW DURING THAT TIME I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER FOR ONE MILLI SECOND STOPPPED THINKING ABOUT YOU.

I HAVE TO TELL YOU THIS TONIGHT, RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I DON’T WANNA RISK ME DYING WITH OUT YOU KNOWING. THAT YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRLS THAT I HAVE EVER MET AND SEEING YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THREEE YEARS I HAVE TO TELL YOU YOU GREW INTO ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMEN I HAVE EVER MET.

YOUR FACE IS BEAUTIFUL, YOUR BODY IS A WONDERLAND, AND YOU HAVE A PRETTY SPIRIT/SOUL/PERSONALITY TO MATCH. YOUR SOUL DRIVES ME MORE CRAZY THAN THE REST OF YOU.

EVEN THOUGH I WILL PROBABLY LOVE AGAIN I KNOW I WILL NEVER MEET ANOTHER WOMAN LIKE YOU, SO I FEEL JUST BLESSED THAT SOME HOW OUR PATHS CROSSED. I WISH THAT THINGS IN REALITY DID TURN OUT LIKE THEY DO IN MY DREAMS BUT I KNOW THAT’S NOT POSSIBLE.

I AM NOT SENDING YOU THIS EMAIL BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO GET WITH YOU. MY D!CK HEAD WANTS TO GET WITH YOU BUT MY REAL HEAD KNOWS WE DON’T BELONG TOGETHER.

I KNOW YOU LOVE YOUR BOYFRIEND. I KNOW WE ARE WAY TOO DIFFERENT: I AM SOMETIMES SHY, YOUR ALWAYS OUTGOING. I AM BLACK, YOUR WHITE. I AM URBAN, YOUR COUNTRY. YOUR CONSERVATIVE, I AM LIBRAL. I LOVE FLORIDA AND YOU LOVE ------- WE PROBABLY DON’T EVEN LIKE ANY OF THE SAME THINGS. BUT STILL YOU DRIVE ME NUTSO.

I AM SENDING YOU THIS IN HOPES THAT IT WILL HELP ME MOVE ON, SINCE THE DAY I MEeT YOU IN 1999 NO OTHER WOMAN DOES TO ME WHAT YOU DO TO ME. HOPEFULLY REALESING ALL THESE PENT UP FEELINGS WILL HELP ME MOVE ON.

P.S- I KNOW YOU ARE A GOOD CHRISTIAN GIRL AND LAST I HEARD YOU WERE A VIRGIN BUT DON’T PRETEND FOR ONE SECOND YOU NEVER WONDERED HOW I WAS ROLLIN. SO TO EASE YOUR CUROSITY AND TO LET MY D!CK HEAD GET A SAY IN THIS EMAIL. I INCLUDED A PICTURE OF MY D!CK.

YOU ARE THE COOLEST CHICK I HAVE EVER KNOWN

Bro, I was with you until you started talking about your "dick". Whats up with that?? And stop calling that lady a "chick". And don't count out young love. I am all for love and expressing how you feel. I married my husband at 23 and never regretted the day. Things I may have done single we just do together and its even more fun.

All in all, kudos for expressing how you feel. Just be careful of the wording you use.

this seems like something a 16 y/o would right, and its disrespectful...besides what would your boyfriend think about this email?

that aside, you grow to love greater---and you have a lot of growing to do.

Sometime in life we all need to move along...It was good that you got that stuff off your chest, but my sentiments are similar to baby girl--leave the body anatomy out of the letter next time. But all in all not a bad letter.

I agree with everyone else here. I think the letter is a good first draft because I can tell that all your feelings came right to the surface and spilled out onto the computer screen.You probably couldn't stop them even if you wanted to since you've been holding them in so long. I get that. I'm a blogger and when I'm particularly upset or feeling particularly good..things just rise to the surface and come out all kinds of ways.BUT, I usually go back,read it all over and edit or delete some things just so that the wrong impression of me or the situation doesn't come across. That's what I would do with your letter. Go back, edit it, romance it up a bit more..and make it a bit more understated - I think she'll still catch your drift but be sure that you don't scare her away by coming across a little too anxious or aggressive or ...needy. And be sure to be respectful of her current situation.

I know how you feel though I fell in love with my girlfriend while she was still with someone else and boy was it frustrating to just be the "friend" that I knew she liked but was not, in love with.All the while, I was in love with her but had to play it cool.I did the same thing, I wrote her a letter and poured it all out....respectfully and cautiously but letting her know how I felt and that I would wait for her until she was no longer attached. That letter was the turning point of our relationship and we've been together now over two years. :) I hope yours has a similar happy ending. Good luck!

I thought Bahmaboy was gay!!!:confused: I don't know if you intentionally misspelled those words but that post needs some serious editing and not only grammatically. Why would you send a picture of your penis to the girl of your dreams? This is beyond me unless she specifically ask to see it and then maybe. This email comes off as needy and somewhat crude. There are better ways to woo a woman and you might not be on the right track buddy.:)

jeez....you had me until your little head popped up. :)

but as a female....i forgot everything else you said prior to your mentioning it. hopefully she'll look past it. or best-case scenario, she stops haunting your thoughts & dreams.

good luck.

I think all or most of us BI folks have crazy things going on in our lives outside of BI.

There is this girl who I have been seriously in love with since the day I meet her many years ago.

Due to many different circumstance we just never hooked up, the way i wanted to. She was feelin me back then but not as much as I was feelin her. She was younger than men by 2 yrs and I could never get her to get as serious as I would want to with us walking down the isle.

I mean seriously I could be married to her right now but thats the point of why we are not together right now. what was we gonna do, get married!!!!??????

I never ever wanted to be married before my late 20's becuase i know marriages before then almost never last and you have so much more living to do between 17 and 27.

I was in lover with her but I had to choose between her and following my dreams. I choose my dreams.

This girl has been huanting me ever sinse and i have never been in love with anyone since her. She knew i liked her but she didnt know i love her.

tonight i just had enough and thought to myself. "even though there is no chance of us getting together like my heart would like us to be together, if i tell her just how much i love her my heart can finallly let her go."

to be real with yall after i clicked the send button on this email i feel as though i have let go and my heart can move on.

here is the email:

Ok so I know you are gonna think I am crazy after this but this is drivin me crazy and I heard this song recently talking about how things just don’t matter any more.

Right now I am at a place where I don’t care. I think it’s a good place to be because in the past I couldn’t move forward with anything because I was sooo afraid about what people would think. I was so afraid to make any risky moves because I didn’t want people not to like me. I was afraid to make moves like this cause I don’t wanna mess up my future plans. i was afraid that i would loose focus on things that were important to me. This fear crippled me, it made me shy unexpectatly even with my friends. It made me sometimes physically freeze in social settings. Whatever that thing was it got so bad I was afraid of any and everything.

But right now I have decided that that crap just don’t matter any more and I don’t care how you take this. And I don’t care if you neva felt this deep about me. I have to relax, let things go and stop being so fearful.

I hope after I tell you this you will stop haunting me and I can get some sleep at night.

YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY, ALWAYS DID. I CANT STOP THINKING BOUT YOU, I NEVA STOPPED THINKIN ABOUT YOU. I KNOW I STOPPED CALLIN YOU BUT I WAS GOING THROUGH SOME SERIIOUS SH!T AT THAT POINT.

ONE OF THE WORST THINGS I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE WAS HEARING ON THE NEWS THAT YOU HAD AN ACCIDENT AND KNOWING YOU WAS IN THE HOSPITAL RIGHT UP THE STREET FROM MY HOUSE AND NEVER GOING TO VISIT YOU. I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MY SELF FOR IT.

THAT WAS SO SELFISH BUT I JUST COULDN’T SEE YOU AND IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER I DIDN’T ONLY DO THAT TO YOU, I DID THAT TO EVERYBODY. AT THAT TIME I FELT LIKE I DIDN’T EVEN KNOW WHO I WAS, I JUST NEEDED TO BE ALONE TO THINK A LOT OF STUFF OUT AND FIGGA OUT WHO I WAS AND WHAT I WANTED OUT OF LIFE. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW DURING THAT TIME I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER FOR ONE MILLI SECOND STOPPPED THINKING ABOUT YOU.

I HAVE TO TELL YOU THIS TONIGHT, RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I DON’T WANNA RISK ME DYING WITH OUT YOU KNOWING. THAT YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRLS THAT I HAVE EVER MET AND SEEING YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME IN THREEE YEARS I HAVE TO TELL YOU YOU GREW INTO ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMEN I HAVE EVER MET.

YOUR FACE IS BEAUTIFUL, YOUR BODY IS A WONDERLAND, AND YOU HAVE A PRETTY SPIRIT/SOUL/PERSONALITY TO MATCH. YOUR SOUL DRIVES ME MORE CRAZY THAN THE REST OF YOU.

EVEN THOUGH I WILL PROBABLY LOVE AGAIN I KNOW I WILL NEVER MEET ANOTHER WOMAN LIKE YOU, SO I FEEL JUST BLESSED THAT SOME HOW OUR PATHS CROSSED. I WISH THAT THINGS IN REALITY DID TURN OUT LIKE THEY DO IN MY DREAMS BUT I KNOW THAT’S NOT POSSIBLE.

I AM NOT SENDING YOU THIS EMAIL BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO GET WITH YOU. MY D!CK HEAD WANTS TO GET WITH YOU BUT MY REAL HEAD KNOWS WE DON’T BELONG TOGETHER.

I KNOW YOU LOVE YOUR BOYFRIEND. I KNOW WE ARE WAY TOO DIFFERENT: I AM SOMETIMES SHY, YOUR ALWAYS OUTGOING. I AM BLACK, YOUR WHITE. I AM URBAN, YOUR COUNTRY. YOUR CONSERVATIVE, I AM LIBRAL. I LOVE FLORIDA AND YOU LOVE ------- WE PROBABLY DON’T EVEN LIKE ANY OF THE SAME THINGS. BUT STILL YOU DRIVE ME NUTSO.

I AM SENDING YOU THIS IN HOPES THAT IT WILL HELP ME MOVE ON, SINCE THE DAY I MEeT YOU IN 1999 NO OTHER WOMAN DOES TO ME WHAT YOU DO TO ME. HOPEFULLY REALESING ALL THESE PENT UP FEELINGS WILL HELP ME MOVE ON.

P.S- I KNOW YOU ARE A GOOD CHRISTIAN GIRL AND LAST I HEARD YOU WERE A VIRGIN BUT DON’T PRETEND FOR ONE SECOND YOU NEVER WONDERED HOW I WAS ROLLIN. SO TO EASE YOUR CUROSITY AND TO LET MY D!CK HEAD GET A SAY IN THIS EMAIL. I INCLUDED A PICTURE OF MY D!CK.

YOU ARE THE COOLEST CHICK I HAVE EVER KNOWN

This is BEAUTIFUL!!! :cry: !!! Hey u never know though, she has a boyfriend not a husband, so there could still be a chance!!!!:cutie:

ps I hope sh at least responds to your email!!!!

You let go when you clicked "send" alright.

You can let go of all hopes of gaining anything but a restraining order with her, if she has any real sense. Never send an email like that without knowing what state of mind a woman is in at that time.

In fact, unless you are actively dating the person, don't send an email with too much emotion in it at all. You do that sort of thing in person.

That email probably will be laughed at and instantly forwarded to all of her friends. Or if she's really cruel she will suck you dry (and not in a good way) - Some women do get off on needy men, until they become bored and throw them away.

You created no sense of worth regarding yourself except the fact that you are a freak for this chick.

EVEN THOUGH I WILL PROBABLY LOVE AGAIN I KNOW I WILL NEVER MEET ANOTHER WOMAN LIKE YOU, SO I FEEL JUST BLESSED THAT SOME HOW OUR PATHS CROSSED. I WISH THAT THINGS IN REALITY DID TURN OUT LIKE THEY DO IN MY DREAMS BUT I KNOW THAT’S NOT POSSIBLE.
How do you know that you will never meet another woman like her again?

Man, you need some help. Desperately.

I AM NOT SENDING YOU THIS EMAIL BECAUSE I AM TRYING TO GET WITH YOU. MY D!CK HEAD WANTS TO GET WITH YOU BUT MY REAL HEAD KNOWS WE DON’T BELONG TOGETHER.You just got two negative hits right there.

1. She's a woman. They know that men want to get with them. You shouldn't have stated the obvious, cause you are nothing special. You just classed yourself with every other guy that has ever tried to get into her panties.

2. Your "real head" knows what? Then why are you wasting her time? You showed nothing but weakness in that statement. There is no way she honestly can respect you. She might respond and say so to make sure that you don't become a stalker, but you just helped to shatter any positive opinion of you.

I KNOW YOU LOVE YOUR BOYFRIEND. I KNOW WE ARE WAY TOO DIFFERENT: I AM SOMETIMES SHY, YOUR ALWAYS OUTGOING. I AM BLACK, YOUR WHITE. I AM URBAN, YOUR COUNTRY. YOUR CONSERVATIVE, I AM LIBRAL. I LOVE FLORIDA AND YOU LOVE ------- WE PROBABLY DON’T EVEN LIKE ANY OF THE SAME THINGS. BUT STILL YOU DRIVE ME NUTSO.SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND?

What in the world are you doing sending this email to a girl with a boyfriend!

Stalker.

And those differences mean nothing in the overall scheme of things...if you actually had a chance, that is.

I AM SENDING YOU THIS IN HOPES THAT IT WILL HELP ME MOVE ON, SINCE THE DAY I MEeT YOU IN 1999 NO OTHER WOMAN DOES TO ME WHAT YOU DO TO ME. HOPEFULLY REALESING ALL THESE PENT UP FEELINGS WILL HELP ME MOVE ON.Tell the truth.

If you really were interested in moving on, you would have seen how ridiculous the NOTION was of sending this email. Unfortunately you actually sent it.

P.S- I KNOW YOU ARE A GOOD CHRISTIAN GIRL AND LAST I HEARD YOU WERE A VIRGIN BUT DON’T PRETEND FOR ONE SECOND YOU NEVER WONDERED HOW I WAS ROLLIN. SO TO EASE YOUR CUROSITY AND TO LET MY D!CK HEAD GET A SAY IN THIS EMAIL. I INCLUDED A PICTURE OF MY D!CK.

ROTFLMBO...

*reads that paragraph again*

ROTFLMBO...

You sent a good "Christian girl" a picture of your dick?

Let me break this down for you.

- IF she was a good Christian girl, THAT would offend her.

- IF she was actually interested in "how you were rolling" at the point when you met her, her boyfriend already is tapping that behind on the regular, doing what you didn't have the balls to step up and do.

(Never though of it like that eh? Don't be surprised if she sends you a picture of her boyfriend's dick in return with a note saying, "Thanks, but no thanks. This one is doing just fine by me right now.")

- IF she is interested in "how you are rolling" now, even though she has a boyfriend...RUN. She is setting you up for a beat down from her boyfriend and his friends. Or alternatively, the coochie has been around the block and is circling for men it missed.

I have nothing else to say...

You let go when you clicked "send" alright.
You can let go of all hopes of gaining anything but a restraining order with her, if she has any real sense. Never send an email like that without knowing what state of mind a woman is in at that time.
In fact, unless you are actively dating the person, don't send an email with too much emotion in it at all. You do that sort of thing in person.
That email probably will be laughed at and instantly forwarded to all of her friends. Or if she's really cruel she will suck you dry (and not in a good way) - Some women do get off on needy men, until they become bored and throw them away.
You created no sense of worth regarding yourself except the fact that you are a freak for this chick.
How do you know that you will never meet another woman like her again?
Man, you need some help. Desperately.
You just got two negative hits right there.
1. She's a woman. They know that men want to get with them. You shouldn't have stated the obvious, cause you are nothing special. You just classed yourself with every other guy that has ever tried to get into her panties.
2. Your "real head" knows what? Then why are you wasting her time? You showed nothing but weakness in that statement. There is no way she honestly can respect you. She might respond and say so to make sure that you don't become a stalker, but you just helped to shatter any positive opinion of you.
SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND?
What in the world are you doing sending this email to a girl with a boyfriend!
Stalker.
And those differences mean nothing in the overall scheme of things...if you actually had a chance, that is.
Tell the truth.
If you really were interested in moving on, you would have seen how ridiculous the NOTION was of sending this email. Unfortunately you actually sent it.
ROTFLMBO...
*reads that paragraph again*
ROTFLMBO...
You sent a good "Christian girl" a picture of your dick?
Let me break this down for you.
- IF she was a good Christian girl, THAT would offend her.
- IF she was actually interested in "how you were rolling" at the point when you met her, her boyfriend already is tapping that behind on the regular, doing what you didn't have the balls to step up and do.
(Never though of it like that eh? Don't be surprised if she sends you a picture of her boyfriend's dick in return with a note saying, "Thanks, but no thanks. This one is doing just fine by me right now.")
- IF she is interested in "how you are rolling" now, even though she has a boyfriend...RUN. She is setting you up for a beat down from her boyfriend and his friends. Or alternatively, the coochie has been around the block and is circling for men it missed.
I have nothing else to say...


:jawdroop: Yorick..Yorick..Yorick....
Can't you see this boy is already in enough agony?
1) over being in complete love with this girl and
2) wondering whether or not his email was appropriate.
Don't you think you should take it a little easier on him? Poor Guy.

:jawdroop: Yorick..Yorick..Yorick....
Can't you see this boy is already in enough agony?
1) over being in complete love with this girl and
2) wondering whether or not his email was appropriate.
Don't you think you should take it a little easier on him? Poor Guy.


I suspect bahmaboy knows exactly what he is doing. Maybe he is transitioning.
Like Vicky is fond of saying.

:jawdroop: Yorick..Yorick..Yorick....
Can't you see this boy is already in enough agony?
1) over being in complete love with this girl and
2) wondering whether or not his email was appropriate.
Don't you think you should take it a little easier on him? Poor Guy.


Someone has to keep it real - go Yorick!

:jawdroop: Yorick..Yorick..Yorick....
Can't you see this boy is already in enough agony?
1) over being in complete love with this girl and
2) wondering whether or not his email was appropriate.
Don't you think you should take it a little easier on him? Poor Guy.

Every real man has to kill the little boy inside of him before he can properly grow as a man.

It's not an easy process and neither is it supposed to be. It involves pain and heartache which effectively shatters the "boy" world within.

Nowadays too many women are afraid to hurt men (could you believe such nonsense?), so they let these "men" down easy or keep them as "friends" whereas the man is left holding on - wondering if he can change the inevitable outcome.

His first mistake was never telling her the truth face to face, and now NINE years later he wants to fess up and do some half-hearted admission of wanting to screw her?

Ya'll stop supporting this nonsense! Inadvertently creating stalkers.

Man I know they say that two heads are better than one, but in this case I think you should have just used one head.

You had me convince in that letter until Mr. Johnson joined the party.

Man I know they say that two heads are better than one, but in this case I think you should have just used one head. You had me convince in that letter until Mr. Johnson joined the party.


I agree with the above. Why send the last portion? Did you hope against hope that she would contact you and dump her boyfriend for you? If she's offended by your perv behavior, then you just cost yourself a potential friendship as well.