Indicates alot of confusion no matter what gender that person chooses.

teenagers have a lot on their plates now add gender dysphoria. I learned real fast how to be like a boy. I did it very well.

FYI something was said today at home and I almost ended it. It sent me the lowest I have ever been in my life. In a few moments of clear thought I disassembled my gun and gave the barrel to my wife. Thanks to her my ex wife and my sister in law I am starting to get out of the depression. Almost every thought was to end even when I posted earlier today I even looked at the water next to me and the electricals around me. I am still not out of it yet who knows it might be a while you all might be even celebrate

teenagers have a lot on their plates now add gender dysphoria. I learned real fast how to be like a boy. I did it very well.
FYI something was said today at home and I almost ended it. It sent me the lowest I have ever been in my life. In a few moments of clear thought I disassembled my gun and gave the barrel to my wife. Thanks to her my ex wife and my sister in law I am starting to get out of the depression. Almost every thought was to end even when I posted earlier today I even looked at the water next to me and the electricals around me. I am still not out of it yet who knows it might be a while you all might be even celebrate



I cant imagine what was said....and/or what else is going on. But nothing, ....nothing is worse than the finality that would be if you took that step. We all have good days and bad days. Words are only words.....they mean very little....it is actions that count most....and even then people later come to regret the things they have said and/or done. Everyone says or does a thing in their lives they later wish they could change. We persevere on and battle thru the bad days so that we are here to enjoy the blessings in our lifes, our families, our friends, our faith, our beliefs. Im glad you put that down and I will pray that whatever made you even consider it has passed and that brighter days come soon. Contemplating suicide seriously even for a few minutes should lead you to consider talking to someone about it (like what WG says below). We all at times could use a little help. And some of our battles are more stressful than others might believe.

teenagers have a lot on their plates now add gender dysphoria. I learned real fast how to be like a boy. I did it very well.
FYI something was said today at home and I almost ended it. It sent me the lowest I have ever been in my life. In a few moments of clear thought I disassembled my gun and gave the barrel to my wife. Thanks to her my ex wife and my sister in law I am starting to get out of the depression. Almost every thought was to end even when I posted earlier today I even looked at the water next to me and the electricals around me. I am still not out of it yet who knows it might be a while you all might be even celebrate


I would never celebrate someone killing themseleves even if I don't like them, that's a horrible thing to say...if that's what you are saying (I'm not sure, you should explain more).

But Vicky, you are a walking time-bomb, you are very unstable, if someone could say something to you and you would put a gun to your head that's unsettling. Words are only words and your self esteem should be at a point at your age which can handle these "words". You need professional help if you can't take it.

The thing that surprises me is that you counsel other TGs. Stop where you are and consider help, something is not right in your life. I notice you said you are in depression...are you seeking help at this time?

teenagers have a lot on their plates now add gender dysphoria. I learned real fast how to be like a boy. I did it very well.
FYI something was said today at home and I almost ended it. It sent me the lowest I have ever been in my life. In a few moments of clear thought I disassembled my gun and gave the barrel to my wife. Thanks to her my ex wife and my sister in law I am starting to get out of the depression. Almost every thought was to end even when I posted earlier today I even looked at the water next to me and the electricals around me. I am still not out of it yet who knows it might be a while you all might be even celebrate
Why would any of us celebrate your untimely death? :dgi: You're a part of the BI family & with family ya take the good & the bad.I dn't think because people disagree with your post that they have animosity against you. JMHO

I would never celebrate someone killing themseleves even if I don't like them, that's a horrible thing to say...if that's what you are saying (I'm not sure, you should explain more).
But Vicky, you are a walking time-bomb, you are very unstable, if someone could say something to you and you would put a gun to your head that's unsettling. Words are only words and your self esteem should be at a point at your age which can handle these "words". You need professional help if you can't take it.
The thing that surprises me is that you counsel other TGs. Stop where you are and consider help, something is not right in your life. I notice you said you are in depression...are you seeking help at this time?

How does one explain to someone who can't understand. When you live in a world where conformity is the rule of the day and your very being is outside of that conformity life is very different. Its a damed if you do and a damed if you don't life and I am only human. Its a matter of choosing which to live with. Hate yourself or have others hate you... HHhm which would you pick....
I chose to love who I am and sociaty can hate all they want they may even take my life but I will not let them dicktate how I should live my life. Some times something causes one to stumble. Well today I stumbled hard but I knew what was coming and I did what I had to do. I will survive. Yes I am there for other GLBT and I can counsel them because I know frist hand what they are going through I have been there done that and bought the T shirt to. Experiance is a very good teacher...

Seek help from who
I have my wife she is awesome
hey I even have some of you people.
I don't think there is a Gender counseler here in the Bahamas at least that can tell me what I don't already understand.
As one Dr said there is only learning to live with yourself. Making the desisions thats right for your life and well being. There is no treatment or cure and you will have times when you will be low and time when you will be ok.

Why would any of us celebrate your untimely death? :dgi: You're a part of the BI family & with family ya take the good & the bad.I dn't think because people disagree with your post that they have animosity against you. JMHO

It is not from here. Here you all drag me through the mud and I expect it. This was something at home and very close to my heart and very unexpectied.

How does one explain to someone who can't understand. When you live in a world where conformity is the rule of the day and your very being is outside of that conformity life is very different. Its a damed if you do and a damed if you don't life and I am only human. Its a matter of choosing which to live with. Hate yourself or have others hate you... HHhm which would you pick....
I chose to love who I am and sociaty can hate all they want they may even take my life but I will not let them dicktate how I should live my life. Some times something causes one to stumble. Well today I stumbled hard but I knew what was coming and I did what I had to do. I will survive. Yes I am there for other GLBT and I can counsel them because I know frist hand what they are going through I have been there done that and bought the T shirt to. Experiance is a very good teacher...
Seek help from who
I have my wife she is awesome
hey I even have some of you people.
I don't think there is a Gender counseler here in the Bahamas at least that can tell me what I don't already understand.
As one Dr said there is only learning to live with yourself. Making the desisions thats right for your life and well being. There is no treatment or cure and you will have times when you will be low and time when you will be ok.


I have never been through gender confusion or whatever you call it. Pulling a gun on yourself is serious, what if you wife was not there? There something still going on with you and you should take it serious. Find someone that you can speak with.

I have never been through gender confusion or whatever you call it. Pulling a gun on yourself is serious, what if you wife was not there? There something still going on with you and you should take it serious. Find someone that you can speak with.

Hi all and thanks nothing like a good night sleep pulled tightly in your loved ones arms to make a difference in a new day. I just carry one more shield.
Winter I did not pull the gun on my self I took it apart before I got that low I just knew I was going down. Like I said I have dealt with this before in myself and others.
I have someone who I can speak with she is with me all the time she held me tight in her arms till I went to sleep last night. My wonderful wife..
Here is the fact and it came from a Dr. this depression or purging is done by all people that see them selves as outcast.
Its like when some one says I will never do that again. Or when an alcoholic finally understands it has destroyed their life. It a low point in one life when one asks them selves why me, I need to this stop, and so on we all have them.
But in TGs (actually GLBT) how does one stop being who they are??? So you go so low some end up killing them selves. While others get a new shield as its called.
example of a shield "its ok if I speed this time cause everyone else is doing it all the time"..
Believe me I have researched this...
Knowing what I know does not stop the threat of the outside world nor the pressures and fear it puts on our (GLBT) families...

Hi all and thanks nothing like a good night sleep pulled tightly in your loved ones arms to make a difference in a new day. ......
I knew you would see things clearly. I know you. You are strong! You will bounce back. We all get “hit in the gut” from time to time - sometimes hard, from which we think we will never recover, but in the long run it only makes us stronger. Call me if you need to talk.

Blessings! :)

I knew you would see things clearly. I know you. You are strong! You will bounce back. We all get “hit in the gut” from time to time - sometimes hard, from which we think we will never recover, but in the long run it only makes us stronger. Call me if you need to talk.
Blessings! :)

I almost called you I had your number on the computer. Just knowing you were there made a big differance... and I knew you would have even come if I asked still might call you today just to talk.. Thanks really deep down thanks...

Have a question about your post on the movie

why did you say he was confused and she was confused??

I almost called you I had your number on the computer. Just knowing you were there made a big differance... and I knew you would have even come if I asked still might call you today just to talk.. Thanks really deep down thanks...

Your are welcome. Call anytime, I am usually in.

Have a question about your post on the movie
why did you say he was confused and she was confused??

Gwen seemed to go through three outward] stages in the movie. First as a boy, then as a boy who wore makeup then as a women. One could see the outward transformation as the picture progressed.

Inwardly, it is not so much a transformation as it is an awakening to one’s true nature. It is extremely hard, in a movie to get that part to come out on film. The movie did a fair job of it but it could have been better.

I knew you would see things clearly. I know you. You are strong! You will bounce back. We all get “hit in the gut” from time to time - sometimes hard, from which we think we will never recover, but in the long run it only makes us stronger. Call me if you need to talk.
Blessings! :)


If there is food on the table .. then whats to be worried about .. try living off 1 hotdog a day . .. yep ..

If there is food on the table .. then whats to be worried about .. try living off 1 hotdog a day . .. yep ..

A full and contented belly, and a full and contented inner being are two different things. I know many folks that can fill the belly, but not the inner being.

Join us for dinner sometime! I think you know who I am? I can promise you a full belly, and we can work on the inner being, or not! :) lol. lol.

So Vic, I'm assuming that you were a man and chose to become an "IT". I'm sorry, but however you would like to describe your choice or misguided belief, there is no explanation for it. A doctor came up with a term so you could have a bull**** excuse. If you were born a man or a woman, you were not meant to be anything else but a man or a woman. The more concerning factor is the fact that you do not convert to being female, you simply lose your manhood, and by fitting into niether category you become an "IT". You're not a woman and if you are post-op, you're no longer a man either. Your gender is not determined by what you think you should be, it is literally who you are, and there's no amount of surgery, excuse or terminology that will ever change that.

why has my thread turned into the sissy agenda?:hot: folks can we stay on topic.